I needed to make a writing schedule I could stick to, that still leaves room for laundry, meals and exercise. Since this Monday, I have been giving myself two hours a morning to read/write/journal and explore my various projects that have been simmering on the back burner – a long poem series on Georgia O’Keeffe, some stories and poems about my father, and a whole lot of other stories that need reworking.
Like the Russian dolls my son gave me in Paris, I have many layers inside of me, many talents and things I love to do. It’s hard for me to stick to just one thing. But I’m going to give this writing thing a good fighting chance. Reading The Right to Write by Julia Cameron, recommended to me by Karen Ely, is helping me understand that writing is also about listening. Listening in, letting the soul be called by the specific things in this world, the red-wing blackbird bobbing on a maple branch, the smell of the peonies on my kitchen table, the ouch of a stubbed toe on a metal chair leg. Letting my inner ear hear, and transcribing what transpires.Anyway here is what came out of my workbook about my new focus:
No to dizzy spinning busy-making crazinessYes to Calm Center
Yes to my work space inviolate and Boundaries around writing time
Yes to Exploring relationship buildilng, developing new ways of being together and aloneYes to long distance mothering and having faith in their ability to function without my intervention
Yes to allowing my energy and concern to be on my work, primariily
No to the habit of pleasing others firstYes to solid “I” centered focus
No to being the little wifeyYes to sharing creative energies andprojects with like-minded artists
No to letting all consuming volunteer projects online overwhelm me
Some items on this list scare me, and feel a tad selfish. I guess that’s a sign that I have a ways to go to value my own work, worth enough to make time for it and commit.I’ll be writing the blog less frequently this summer, but you can join me on Facebook anytime, on either Musemother’s page or The Tao of turning Fifty page.
Enjoy the good weather – it’s bound to turn up soon!